..." Then hurriedly:
"No, I shouldn't say that. You must forgive me ... you have confused
me."
"I'm very unhappy ... I've been unhappy a long time. It was a mistake
in Petrograd. I don't love you--but it isn't only that.... You
wouldn't be happy with me. You think now ... but it's a mistake."
He has told me that as the idea worked through to his brain his only
thought was that he must keep her at all costs, under any conditions,
keep her.
"You can't--you mustn't," he whispered, staring as though he would
hold her by her eyes. "Don't you see that you mustn't? What am I to do
after all this? What are we both to do? It's breaking everything. I
shan't believe in anything if you.... Ah! but no, you don't really
mean anything...."
He saw that she was trembling and he bent forward, put his arm very
gently round her as though he would protect her.
But she very strongly drew away from him, looked him in the face, then
dropped her eyes, let her whole body droop as though she were most
bitterly ashamed.
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